everything is going to be so different in these upcoming weeks and next year. I really feel alone now and it kinda sucks the thing I use as an outlet is slowly becoming something I need an outlet for. Everything this year was so different. Some in a positive way and some in a negative way. I feel like next year there’s not really going to be anything left of this program and it honestly scares me. It’s slowly starting to occur to me that the last of the people that actually had a passion for guard, are leaving this year and most of the others just do it because they have nothing better to do. All this is really taking my joy for guard away and as shocking as it may sound, the thought of not coming back has crossed my mind a few times…